The Anonymous Howard Beale was kind enough to email this to me. He posted this on Facebook (I think) and since he knows that I actively boycott Facebook, he emailed it to me. This spoke to me, so I figured I would share.
I have one of those minds that distills information at an incredible rate, so incredible in fact I often times find myself thinking and calculating instead of acting. It is as if I am a multi-billion dollar supercomputer stuck on the shell prompt with 600,000 commands and routines at my disposal and no one at the terminal. It is an odd thing to describe, being paralyzed in a sense by my own thoughts.
Ideas a thousand times an hour, little ideas, big ideas, holy shit type of ideas... one of the recurring themes in the past year or so for me has been what is this all about? When one of my closest friends beat cancer, I know he went through a bit of a transformation. Last night another one of my oldest and closest friends damn near got killed, but luckily he was uninjured. Do we thank a Creator for this? Do we just be thankful in general?
Sadly, things like this go the other way every single day on this planet, and when they do people generally say there was a reason. I am starting to feel however that this elusive "reason" things like this happen for the better or for worse is not by design or fate. I am leaning more towards the conclusion that collectively, humanity is in control of most of these situations. Please take note I am not saying the individual person is at fault, because that is rubbish... but people as a whole contributed significantly to the outcomes of life, and of happiness or misery.
If you can assume for a moment that in fact we are in control in 99.99% of the time, then you will realize quite quickly that it would be impossible for anyone to detect the interplay between your actions or inactions and the unknown consequences of those choices. Thereby giving all of us the illusion of "fate". I know this sounds a bit like Chaos Theory, but bear with me.
Billions of years ago, a star exploded that contained the building blocks of everything and everyone that ever was or ever will be on this planet. Millions of years ago some living organism died and is now residing in the fuel tank of Air Force One. Thousands of years ago our ancestors toughed it out in an unimaginably hellish world of ignorance and survival, and you reading this today is the most recent result of their hardship. Hundreds of years ago people decided to finally explore the world, and now today we are irrevocably changed by this. Ten's of years ago, people were focused on the most efficient and devastating ways of destroying other people, and today we are focused on the most efficient and devastating ways to destroy resources.
A few years ago, people in general had no idea what the internet was, today you can't go through modern life without it referenced a dozen times. A year ago, the Standard Model wasn't 100% validated, today it pretty much is. A month ago you could of had a bad day at work or at school, but today it doesn't matter. A week ago you could have interacted in a small way with someone, but today you can't even remember their name. Yesterday someone was here amongst us, alive, all of their life experiences and memories intact and today, they are not, and gone with them forever is their unique talents, perspective, imagination and personality.
You see it doesn't really matter how you slice it or rationalize it, this ride we all are on has an ending. The lap bars of the rollercoaster will eventually unlock and you will be finished, your trip through the twists, turns, loops, laughs, tears, pain, joy, fright, and thrills of life over. No do overs, no take backs, no reset switch, no backup battery. Realize that everything we do as a species and as a people, drives us either towards substance or oblivion. The choices we make right now is setting the stage and writing the script to the next age of humanity as it was written and set for us.
tl:dr version: Stop being part of the fucking problem.
Be considerate, be thoughtful, mindful, aware and responsible for your actions and the foreseeable effects they have.
We can't stop all the shit from happening, but we can at least choose to not shit on each other.
Stop believing some higher power is acting like Geppetto and has some deathgrip on the puppet strings of our world.
Start believing instead in your own ability and will, and of the power of those around you.